what are you good at?
do you sing? do you play an instrument? or maybe do you draw? do
you paint? do you craft? what are you good at? what is something that
you excel at more than others? it’s fulfilling to have something you can
say you are good at, and have others rush to you for help in regards to
it, because, that is what you are good at. but what if you aren’t good at
anything? sure, a few skills here and there in a magnitude of hobbies,
but, nothing exceptional. you’re able to do things, and sure, maybe
you’re decent, but you aren’t amazing, or great, or good. what’s it like
to be good at something, and then lose it? to have most of your life
centred around one thing because “you’re good at it” and suddenly all
of that ‘ goodness ‘ is gone. why would that even happen? pressure?
loss of interest? laziness? shouldn’t you want to cling to something
you’re good at? but what if that loss is not intentional, it suddenly just
slips away from you and you don’t really understand why. you miss
being good at something, you miss being able to say “yeah I’m good at
this, don’t be afraid to ask me if you need help!” but, now, you don’t
feel like you have it in yourself to be able to say something like that,
you feel that it would be a lie – a lie to others and an even bigger lie to
yourself. others don’t know this, they still see you and think “they’re
good!” they ask you for help, and you try, but it isn’t very helpful and
you brush it off as being tired. but you know why, and it sucks. what
happened? there’s still expectations, things people want from you.
you try to meet them, but it’s just impossible. you’re not good anymore.
should you let that go? should you find something else? or should you keep trying?